Amanda Bynes graced the cover of the annual cover of Paper Magazine‘s Break the Internet issue, where she opens up about her drug abuse problems. The actress looked very stunning and healthy in the photos taken for the magazine. During the interview, the 32-year-old got really real about her battles that often left her tweeting out hurtful things that she didn’t mean. Bynes tweeted out many embarrassing tweets during her meltdowns where she insulted big name celebrities such as, Nicki Minaj, Drake and even Barack Obama.
Amanda said her drug abuse problems started with her smoking marijuana at the age of 16-years-old and progressed from there: “I started smoking marijuana when I was 16. Even though everyone thought I was the ‘good girl,’ I did smoke marijuana from that point on… Later on, it progressed to doing molly and ecstasy. [I tried] cocaine three times but I never got high from cocaine. I never liked it. It was never my drug of choice… I definitely abused Adderall.”
She admitted to using Adderall while filming the movie Hall Pass saying, “When I was doing Hall Pass, I remember being in the trailer and I used to chew the Adderall tablets because I thought they made me [more] high [that way]… [I remember] seeing my image on the screen and literally tripping out and thinking my arm looked so fat because it was in the foreground or whatever and I remember rushing off set and thinking, Oh my god, I look so bad.”
Bynes apologized to all the people she caused pain saying: “I’m really ashamed and embarrassed with the things I said. I can’t turn back time but if I could, I would. And I’m so sorry to whoever I hurt and whoever I lied about because it truly eats away at me. It makes me feel so horrible and sick to my stomach and sad. Everything I worked my whole life to achieve, I kind of ruined it all through Twitter… it’s definitely not Twitter’s fault — it’s my own fault.”
As for anyone else who my be struggling with addiction, the actress says: “My advice to anyone who is struggling with substance abuse would be to be really careful because drugs can really take a hold of your life.”
The former “All That” star says she hopes to release a clothing line and eventually get back into acting soon.