In a recent interview with Apple Music’s Zane Lowe, Meghan Trainor opened up about suffering a mental breakdown. After winning the 2016 Grammy Award for best new artist, the singer said the pressure she felt put a strain on her mental health and her voice, which lead to her second vocal surgery. “I had vocal problems ’cause I was working too much, and I finally collapsed physically and emotionally. I had like a mental breakdown.”
Meghan revealed that she had a panic attack while reading the Grammy nominees live on t.v. with Gayle King in 2017. “I was reading the nominees for the Grammy’s the year after I won, and I was shaking, and I was like, ‘Please don’t collapse on TV right now. We’re live. As soon as they were like, ‘cut,’ I fell and started scream-crying and couldn’t breathe. And later, they took me away. I was supposed to do more work, and they were like, ‘We’re done. This is it.'”
Meghan said that the panic attack came after being threatened by people in the industry. “I had a lot of people tell me, like, ‘If you cancel on this 30-minute set, we’ll never play Meghan Trainor ever again’,” she told Lowe. “So I had everything. I had my GRAMMY, I had what people dream of for years. I had everything I ever wanted, and they were threatening to take it away.
The singer went ahead and got her vocal surgery a year after her Grammys win, “on the day of the Grammys my mind was like, no I’ll keep going, I’ll keep going. And my body was like, bye. My body had to tell me, instead of me being able to take a break.”
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Meghan met with a psychologist who prescribed her with two medications.
“I met so many doctors and I would just cry to them, and be like, ‘It’s something right here. Can you just fix it for me? Help me out’,” she added, “and finally I went to a psychologist and I said, ‘My back is burning, like, as if someone’s holding a torch to it. But I’m OK’. And he was like, ‘OK, so what’s happening is your chemicals are like this and we gotta get them back here’.
“He gave me two medicines that I take every single day and it saved me. Saved my life.”